no man's worth a woman's tears.

hehe.:)

2006-01-09T02:39:00.000-08:00

the happy dappy doodie doo oooh lala christmas vacation!

2005-12-29T23:23:00.000-08:00

this year was a BLAST!

i hope that these things would happen again..

i miss my cousins.. i can't live a day without them..:( but they are coming back next year [i hope they could save up enough money so they could go back here in the Phil.] and i hope that promise is going to come true.. i almost wanted to cry last night 'cause i'm going to wait another year. they're really fun to be with, i tell you.

when the arrived here in the Phil last dec 20, i was kinda excited and.. nervous. after 7 long years, what would they be like? and living in 3 or more different countries - what would they be like? how about the cultures they've been living with? are they mixed up? well i was thinking about that before i slept. december 21, i met them, and ooooohh.. they grew taller. haha. and of course, they were bald! whatta sight. one of 'em, kuya cb, had a really low voice.. a real manly voice! seems like he's old. haha. my younger sister was kinda shocked at his voice and she told me "ate, parang nananakot siya ng tao" but then she learned to get along with him.;) he had a brother, kuya gino.. he looks like a gangstah! wow. amazing. baggy clothes and sh*t, and his m*****f***ing shoes mehhhn! i love 'em! ooh. i actually wanna steal their stuff. haha. they got iPods, and i was kinda glad they let me borrow it. and the songs? upbeat, rappy and danceable songs. ooh lala. i downloaded some songs 'cause i kinda liked the beat. actually nahawa nga ata ako eh. haha. and they had this handshake.. ahhahah! my sister and i made up a handshake using the handshake our cousins taught us. soooo coool.

december 26 - we had a trip to tagaytay. we went to the beach. haha. that was a really early summer trip! kidding. it seemed like it was summer again, and this day was another bonding day with them.:) kuya cb rode the rav4 [our car] while the others in the delica and the carnival. we swam in the pool and we kinda talked for a little while. and i had this slight heart-to-heart talk with kuya gino about his girlfriend and.. his exes. i never imagined he was that dramatic supersonic hip naughty funky and fresh. haha! kidding. i wasn't supposed to sing that. anyway, he was turning pink when he was talking about those.. and i can't forget his face that day, it seemed like he was going to burst into tears.. ooooh. haha. we went to the other beach, terrazas de punta fuego. there were lotsa people, and when i stepped into the sand the first thing that came in to my mind was "parang boracay dito ah.:)" so kuya gino asked me to hold the video cam for him. kuya cb and i were looking at the video cam and he asked me to take a video of the girls dancing. there was this girl who was kinda teaching the others to dance her dance, and there were instrumentalists who were playing the bongos. the girl who was dancing looked like a latina [and thinking my cousins likes her face] what i did was i took a video from head to toe [sorry, girl!] and i zoomed it in her face. haha. she looks kinda pretty eh. then after that my hands were kinda tired of video-ing and i asked kuya cb to hold the video cam for me. when i looked behind me i saw jen rosendahl. ooooh. eeew. i was thinking that maybe they would like her because she was part of the viva hot babes [and of course, viva hot babes are supposed to LOOK sexy]. even before i caught the attention of kuya cb, i realized he was already looking at her and pointed the camera to her legs! sheeeeeesh. haha! and because of that i started laughing.:)) we went home and we ate @ zong. it was located inside the fort and there were lotsa.. chinitos! my sister told me "hala sige maligo ka na sa mga chinito!" and i was laughing. kinikilig na pala.:)) kuya cb and i planned to play basketball the following day, and i hoped that he would come over our house. then there, we went home.

december 27 - there's this instance that we played a song in our comp then kuya cb started rapping [wow, he memorized the lines.. cooooool.]. it was the day when i invited him to play basketball with me.:) he was so goddamn cool. haha. i loved his shoes and shorts! i wanted to grab them from his bag and take it home. haha! it was really fun being with him.;) he ate dinner with the family and he felt like he was the star of the day because we were serving him lotsa food. and i bet he was full.:) he started talking about the life in japan. my mom started interviewing him and kuya cb suddenly blurted out "ano to talk show?" then we started laughing. haha! after that he went home and wanted to play basketball again the following day. i told him it was up to him, and that i was free the whole day. i didn't even think that he would grab some other people.:)

december 28 - i was left at home with nothing to do. my sister watched eneteng kabisote :)) [because their assignment was to watch a movie that was an entry to the metro manila film festival] my parents went with tita tess and tito egdon [kuya cb and kuya gino's parents]. i was talking with people in ym when suddenly someone opened the door, talked in a really low voice and i realized.. they were here! i was really shocked 'cause kuya gino was also there and tito benjie! haha! i changed my clothes and brought them to the basketball court. thay played with some people.[aljon tonton and pepsi were there, haha] so what am i to do while they're playing? listen to kuya gino's iPod. it was fun. the movie coach carter suddenly went through my head because of the song i was hearing. it was an upbeat song and i was watching a basketball game. coolness! so there. they went to the hotel after that and went to the hospital to get the result of kuya gino's right ankle xray. the doctor said that there are no damages and sh*t and if it really bothered him, he could go to the mri [magnetic resonance imaging] section. haha. i heard the stories from my sister.:) the day ended well.:)

december 29 - this is the last day that we'd be together.:( so at first, after lunch we went to the hotel. they weren't there yet so we had to wait for them pa. when they arrived, they shopped for stuff and they changed their clothes. we were planning to have our family picture. our theme was black. we looked like we are going to the funeral.:)) so after we went to the studio in sm manila, we went our separate ways. the people riding in the other van [delica] were going to have their merienda, pick up the pictures by 5, and go to binondo to buy hopia while the others who are riding our van [carnival] are going to get the resul of the mri, go to greenhills and buy my granny a cellphone, eat merienda, pick up "ina" and go to the hotel. we thought that we are going to meet up in the hotel, only to find out that we are already going to meet in the restaurant. it's okay, the restaurant was near the hotel [sa may sm lang naman eh] so we went there. while we were waiting for the food we ordered, i noticed that there was this couple in the other table that had a candlelit dinner.. eeeew. magkatapat na nga, magkaholding hands pa! and i was thinking baka mamaya the place will be burning na.:)) here goes:
kuya gino: pang mcdo lang iyang posisyon na iyan. may pacandle candle pa, hindi naman to fine dining.
camille: onga eh.hindi mcdo eh, baka jollibee pa![bumenta, tawa] at baka mamaya nasususnog na tong restaurant na toh di pa sila tumigil sa kaka holding hands jan.
kuya gino: hayaan nalang natin sila jan, baka mamaya lumabas rin iyan.[sabay tawa]
so there.. it was our last.:( so after that we went to the hotel ang hanged out inside their room. kuya gino, cb, ate and i were lying down in the bed watching mtv. tito benjiie was sitting in the chair beside the bed and feeling sleepy. suddenly tito jack went inside the room and kuya cb and gino started packing up.:( we were watching them pack up, and i discovered some clothes they brought weren't worn at all.. i started getting stuff i liked and wanted to take them home! they had millions of shirts [baggy ones] and a gazillion shorts! and thousands of shoes. i actually want all of them! my sister said "ayan. pinayaman niyo na yung and 1!" haha! then after they packed up their things, they were still planning to gimmick even if they have to go to the airport @ 3 am. 12 na nga eh, but still they haven't left. tsktsk. gimmick boys talaga. anyway, kuya gino asked for my cellphone number and my email address as well then he asked me to take a picture in his cellphone. kuya cb asked my sister the same thing. after kuya gino asked mine, kuya cb asked naman. then after i took my picture, he asked me to take a picture of my sis and i together. after we took the picture, kuya gino asked us the same thing. after we had the pictorial, ako naman yung namicture.:) after i took pictures, we sat in their bed and decided to lie down. so mejo lang, and dami naming nakahiga doon, pito! haha! that was the cutest part. nakisali sina tito jack tita joanne and kevin. hhaha. ooooooops. gulat ako dun ah, kevin.ahahahah!:)) when my parents went inside the room, they told us it was time to go... i dont wanna!:(( but then we have to.:( so i started kissing my granny and the other people. when i went in front of kuya gino, i was staring at him then nagbeso and told him "next year ah?" then he hugged me real tight and said "yes, next year." awwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!! i didn't even think it was my last na pala.:( then when i faced kuya cb [emo part na itong mga to ah!] nagbeso rin kami [besos are actually done everyday.. and they are the only cousins we got that are as sweet as they are. aww.;)] and i told him promise iyan ah? he told me "oo, basta mag iipon.:)" i thought he was going to stay in the hotel, pero hindi pala. he still went to the lobby with us and tito egdon was with us too. i kissed tito egdon goodbye and he told me "so, next time na ulit kita makikita?" then i suddenly said "kelan yung next time na iyon?" he looked into my eyes and wasn't even sure of what he was supposed to answer.:(( i wanna cry that moment before we went inside the elevator.:( kuya cb then said, hey. bye ulit. then beso again.:(( i didn't want them to go.. haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.

so there, that was the best part of my christmas vacation. more to come, bonding naman sa mother's side! at siyempre dahil new year na.. INUMAN NA!! wait for my next update. take care!:)

fair '05-'06 ----> 11.25.o5 up to 11.26.o5

2005-11-26T20:30:00.000-08:00

oh so fun.. haha. although these days were kinda raining.. it felt sooooo good to be here. "the place to be. :)" let's start with friday.

Friday, November 25 2oo5

so fun.. but the morning was kinda boring. as usual, the declaration of the official opening of the fair... boring. then when it was declared opened, we weren't that into riding the rides yet. the lines were so long. we went to our booth, "grossed out" inside the grade 7 venue, "highblood [ano, pataasan tayo?]"the plan was kinda ruined 'cause it rained nga.. the designs were ruined, the tables were wet, the place was muddy.. we decided to lift the tables and put them near the chapel.. and so we did. whooh, sweaty agad. then after that we finally opened our booth. the kids were really enjoying the place. ahahah. and the thingy inside the pail was indeed kadiri [conyo!] . inside it is newspaper, magazine pages cut, activity sheets, cotton, tissue, dry leaves and grass altogether. eeew. haha. then we took a little break and rode some rides. SCRAMBLE. CATERPILLAR. CHUBIBO. haha. it was fun riding the chubibo, i've never seen any ferris wheel run like that. it was sooooooo fast. haha. the scramble was fun too. we rode it for like 5 times or more. haha. nilalangaw nga yung caterpillar eh. haha. i thought aamagin ang aa, hindi naman pala.. there were some guys too.. before we rode the scramble for the second time, may nangharana sa akin. wow. haha. then hinarana ko rin yung isang tao.. haha.

and to think i saw someone which i really did not want to see.. oh no. i cried.

my lunch was McDo, and my dinner was Yellow Cab! yum. :) that night was soooo tiring so we decided to sit on front of yellow cab 'cause it was the only place with vacant seats. my friends were sleepy, and i was kinda sleepy, too. so they tried to close their eyes, but Ryna and I were really feeling funny. the reason was before we sat there we rode the chubibo. then there were some guys who were laughing beside us, and then Ryna blurted out, "Piattos commercial!" then i laughed. our craziness started there. hwoooh. my tummy and head started aching. then after a little while it was time for me to go.. awwwww.

then i stayed in the multi, i cried.... hard. what a day. if he wasn't there, this day would've been better.:(

Saturday, November 26 2oo5

oooooh.. ahhhhh.. this is it. the big day. haha. tagalog na tayo ah? haha. nung una pagdating ko, sabi sa dedication booth "all those who just arrived will be caught." oh no. i started running like crazy. good thing the booth was there, and it was kinda boring [i can see.:))]. gwen asked me where my guy friends are, and i told her that i just texted them. tas nangyari biglang napunta sina kevin dun.. wala pa si blue, tas umalis bigla sila.. di man lang ako inintroduce. rrr. ok. i texted him. tas inintroduce niya ako dun sa friends niya.. ang naalala ko lang na pangalan ay chrio and neill. hahaha! tama yan. but i didn't see chrio's face kasi he was looking at the grass. haha. pero nung kay neill sabe "hi im neill!" haha. ok. first impression.. mabait, makwento, at.. puro kalokohan. haha. tas mabait pala siya. mukha nga siyang mayabang eh.. haha. tas nung sa scramble nagkagaguhan na, pilian ng partner.. girl boy girl boy.. una ko naging partner si kevin..[tahimik niya super..:(] tas sunod kong naging kapartner si neill. grabe. nung time na yun mejo ilang pa ako kasi kakakilala ko palang sakanya tas biglang magkatabi na kami.. so anyway,, well nakakatakot siya.. tas nung nakasakay na kami mejo tahimik lang kami.. sabay sabi niya "so malapit lang yung bahay niyo kina kevin?" so dun na nawala yung fear ko sakanya.. after all magkaparehas pala kaming makwento.. at gago. weh. haha. tas naalala ko feeling ko ang sama ko kay kevin nun kasi iniwanan ko siya mag isa pero ako naman yung nag invite. rrrrr. sorry! tas nag chubibo kami.. tas mejo nabadtrip ako kasi badtrip siya.. ba naman kasi.. tas naiinis lang pala siya.. so yun ok na pala.. it was fun, really.:)

so there, i gotta go..:)

2005-11-18T05:08:00.000-08:00

GROAR.

haha. wala lang. nakaka irita si sis ah, pero for a short while lang naman.:) kasi naman, nailagay na sa aking magandang schedule ang pag uusap namin sa telepono, sabay biglang manonood lang pala siya ng hp4. ipinagpalit niya ang pagsolve ng kanyang problema sa panonood ng movie. haha. tsktsk. yabang! hhahahha! nako, mamaya magaya na ako kay ==censored== at kay spongebob! grr. oops. sorry sis kung masyadong irritable today. parang napansin ko na na sobrang irritable ko today especially nung kaninang umaga. siguro dahil sa nangyari kahapon nung departure. grr.

ewan ko ba, haha. anyway kanina nagiiikot kami nina giyay sa may court. pakapalan ng mukha kasi naman ano ang hirap magbenta ng ticket! eerrgghh. haha. ang siga ko nga kanina eh. "kevin!" sabay movement ng kamay na "come closer". haha! pero in fairness, isang tanong ko lang sakanya, biglang sabi niya limang ticket! huwaw! hhahah! nakakatuwa. di ko na kailangan mag alala pang magbenta. haha. hwoooh. hhahaha.

si dadi kanina mukhang ewan, ang n.r. puro mga bad trip tao ngayon!:)) tas bigla nalang kaming dalawa ng kapatid ko [yung totoo=))] mag isa kasama si giyay. pagkatapos ko siyang gawing ninong sa confirmation ko, gaganunin lang niya ako!? hmf.

nakakairita talaga tong araw na to.. errrgghh. kasi naman kahapong departure.. ergghh. para ngang may "thing" na ako kay wootwoot.:( ewan, basta di ko maintindihan sarili ko. mukhang lumalaki nanaman problema ko.

oi, thanks sa "sisters" ko, they've been making me really happy everyday.. as in makita ko lang sila at tawagin nila akong sis, nakakatuwa lang. ahahha. ayan nanaman tayo, mejo dramatic!:)) pero seryoso, masaya talaga. nakakatouch silang dalawa. oi ah, I LOVE YOU SISTER 1 AND 2! pero hindi siya yung "thing". a friendship thing lang naman.:)

grabehan na ang hectic na ng schedule namin. ergghh. grr. kainis. haha. sa lagay na to mejo nakakatawa pa ako.. pero sa totoo lang deep inside humahagulgol na ako!:| wala na, bad trip nanaman ako. grr.

aiii nako. naiirita na talaga ako kay ==censored== at kay spongebob! parehas lang silang mga asshole! or lets say.. bitch ü whoopsie, censored stuff!

i hate my life.. super. parang gusto ko nang mamatay kasi naman. andaming problema. akala niyo lang sobrang masayahin ako. nagkakamali kayo.

sobrang problematic ako.

what do i do to remove my problematicness? easy. help someone out. pero mejo hindi rin siya easy.. haha. ergggh.

sige na nga, hanggang dito nalang, grrrr!!!

i miss who?:(

2005-11-11T18:42:00.000-08:00

homaigash. sobrang hirap pala talaga magmahal.. ni hindi ko nga alam kung nakapag move on na ako eh.. hmf. pati mga friends ko ganun din.. lahat ata ng tao sawi.:,(

i miss the crew.. 'cause their so cool! although sometimes nagkaka misunderstadings kami and all.. pero i dont care at all.. kasi everything would be alright! haha. ang mejo masaya lang nga doon ay nakakahang out ko pa naman yung ibang crew.. ganda talaga ng summer na toh.. i met new friends, i met new challenges.. challenges in my life.. urrghh. hmf. but im thankful that i experienced those things, kasi i might help the others ren.

i miss him, 'cause i just dont know the reason.. i feel so empty.. i feel nothing.. parang sobrang iyakin ko nang bata. i hope this thing would lead me somewhere called the "moving on".. i hope im near that place.. i bet naka move on na siya.. and id rather feel happy for him than to make him love me. diba? well.. i can't really regret that i loved him or so, 'cause my favorite line says "never regret anything that once made you smile." i cant also blame him for what he has done, since his reason was true.. WE USED TO BE HAPPY.. then all of a sudden he's been ignoring me only to tell me that he wants to go.. it's weird, but i want to see him happy even though it'd hurt me..

i totally forgot what it felt like before..

my life just hasn't been the same.. well, thanks to my friends, they keep me happy.. and i hope they continue to do so.. this is so dramatic.. IM SORRY.. i hate this thing, thinkin' about what happened to me.. last summer.. i wasn't like this, so dramatic.. i hope he'd still trust me.. he said he'd be happy to be my best friend.. but he hasn't been texting me.. he's been enjoying his life, and i bet he's pretty fine without me, but i guess i just have to do this. i won't be suffering this long.. im trying my best to forget everything that happened to us.. but it seems like nothing's changed.. oooh.. tears falling down my eyes.. lemme wipe this.. urgghh..

it's just so freaking hard to show everyone a fake smile..

maybe some of you thought that i've forgotten this issue about us, but i think you're wrong.. this thing has been bothering me for a long time now.. three months, four days, 22 hours.. eeeek.. i thought i' gonna be happy after some time.. hmm.. well i guess not.. that one thing is bothering me, i always see him playing basketball.. whenever im there he's there.. there's this weird feeling that i feel when i see him.. parang there's this connection or better yet "conversation" inside our minds.. just lke we're telling each other "galit kaya siya saken..?" that's weird.. and there's this incident that happened, i asked him if he had another girl.. how dare he lie to me.. i found out that he's got this girl.. or if not, just a love life. his friend told me that. thanks to him i'm able to make a decision to just forget him and stop thinking about the thought that we'd become friends again.. i know i dont have the right to get mad.. BUT HE'S MY BEST FRIEND? [only for the opposite gender] i just cant explain it..

i just want to forget everything so that i may be able to have that "real" smile glued on my face.

people keep on reminding me about our past.. all i say is "wala na iyon matagal na".. then i stop and think, i sit and stare.. suddenly this girl who said that to me went in front of me to apologize.. and i said it was okay.. then i suddenly felt that i was hurt.. manhid nga ba talaga ako? I WISH HE WOULD JUST GO AWAY AND LEAVE ME ALONE.. pero oh well, IF EVER THAT MAN IS READING THIS THING, thanks anyway.. kahit papano you made me smile, you changed my life.. but now i can't have you back [as if i want to be hurt again], i'd rather be happy for you. and always make everyone smile.. even though you're not making me smile..

ang sarap pala ng feeling ng ikaw yung hinihingan nung advice.. tas yung iniiyak iyakan ka lang.. parang sandalan.. i really feel so glad na everything i experienced would help.. tsktsk. i just hope that everything would get better.. i wish that everyone would just have the "sawi" feeling gone..

thanks to god, he keeps me faithful.. he keeps me alive.. he's the only man i can hold on to.. and i bet he's the only man in my life that i could ever turn to..the only man in my life that would make me feel good.. thanks god.

ang bigat ng feeling.. hindi ko na talaga maisip kung anong mangyayari saken..

im still waiting for the right thing to do..........

aiii. wala lang. kasi naman too late na!

2005-11-03T21:01:00.000-08:00

talo red.:((

intrams.

2005-10-20T19:02:00.000-07:00

i think i crush crunch na.:( hmph, nakakaasar, di ko parin alam kung crush ko siya o hindi!:(

omg! haha. i was sooober excited to go to school. yep, ENRICO VILLANUEVA was there.:) guest namin sa intrams.. the usual naman yung nangyari, opening, yung tatakbo yung color mo sa gitna ng multi. tas magppromise thingy. boring nga eh. tas my butt got hurt dun sa cheering kasi sobrang tagal.:))

natapos ang CHEERING... kelangan makapag-usap na kami ng team.. rharrr.. game na kami.. tas freaky yung point namin! 02-16?! shete. kaya naman pala naging ganon yung teammates ko eh. may sumigaw na "bobo yan wag yan! suss.. tanga yan! mga bano naman section 2 eh.." asar?! hmph. section 2 kasi, HINDI CHUMICHEER! ANO BA NAMANG KLASENG PEP SQUAD MERON TAYO, SEC 2?! tas sabi ni mai, si [itago natin ang pangalan nila] lion daw at si brakes ay nagyayabang sa may field. "nakashoot ako!" yung isa naman "oonga ako ren! pero isang beses lang.."

fine! sige! ok lang! panalo nanaman kayo eh. diba?

sorry. just letting go of my feelings.

nagrosaryo pa kami before nung game. narinig ni God ang prayers ng team pero mukhang ang gusto niya ay matuto muna kami sa aming pagkakamali. go section 4.:))

sana naman bukas kahit isang panalo lang kami. makafeel lang kami ng victory. well, i think prayer is a big thing that'll help.:)

LET'S PLAY FOR FUN, NOT FOR FAME.. GO RED TEAM!

sayong tingin ako'y nababaliw giliw...!!

2005-10-01T10:41:00.000-07:00

haiiii.. im missing my papa.. haha!:))

lagi ko nga siyang nasusulyapan eh..

i get to be with papa all the time!

thanks to gwen and friends.:))

nung wednesday.. ang saya.. nag bboard slam kami.. haha! ang saya.. kami kami nina henson, bugnosen at ako.

walang nagddare mag slam edi kami nalang.. mukha kaming tanga dun.. haha!

tapos nung thursday.. hmm.. volleyball kami kami ng volleyballers.. hahah!

kahapon si henson may naimbento sa mga dahon.. maukhang gago.. tas nalaman ko na may crush pala si toot kay kara. si toot ren pala chka si toot. haha.

the chicken power girls.. aylavet!:)) jae gwen and i. haha.:)) marami pa jan na iba, di lang namin alam.:))

kahapon nagpunta kami sa eastwood.. ang saya! tas nakita ko yung orange and lemons.. kay cute..:))

tapos... nakita ko sina bianca dun chka jamie! hehe.. tas magkakilala na ang tatay niya at nanay ko.:))

ang boring today.. walang nangyayari..:((

boring day..:(

2005-09-24T15:35:00.000-07:00

http://www.ukee.com/lq/quiz.php?u=12legnahsiulb_njhp&dom=moc.oohay

puntahan niyo para masaya!:)

haha! benta!:))

2005-09-23T18:11:00.000-07:00

One Funny summer day at beach you see the most cute creature you have ever seen. Their name is patrick , and every move he makes just turns you on more and more. You nudge your best friend j-ann and say, "Wow, that has to be the most hotty body I have ever seen." Suddenly, he looks in your direction and starts walking right towards you!!! he says, "I noticed you staring at me from over there. I just had to tell you, that I think you are so jolog , and was wondering if you'd like to go to mall with me and chat text go out with friends and stuff to do! ?" With a stupid smile on your face you say, " haha. fine. waheber! " and go with them. When you finally get to mall , he moves closer to you, and gives you the biggest kiss ever. The two of you are passionately kissing, when you feel a fish hit you on the back of the head. You open your eyes to find out it's all a dream, but there is a note left next to your bed.

It reads: " patrick is the love you've been waiting your whole life for. he will ask you out in 12 days or less, but only if you send this e-mail to at least 10 people within the next few minutes. The more people you send it to, the sooner they will ask you out, and you both fall in love. Do not take this lightly, because if you simply ignore this, you will have bad luck in love for the next 12 years!"

2005-08-31T18:58:00.000-07:00

the birthday bash last sunday..;)

hahaahha.. ilang beses ko na ba ito nakwento sa aking mga kaibigan?
ewan ko.
hindi mabilang.
haha.

anyway, here it goes.. basta there was a plan na pumunta kami ng candelaria, quezon.. tas my tito was going to inroduce my sister and i sa isa naming cousin..;) that guy was a commercial model ng touch mobile a few years ago pati ng tommy na junk food.;) and then we saw him, and he introduced us.. haha.. you're missing a part, kasi i wont tell it here, baka he'll have the chance to read this..;) ill try to post our pictures next time..;) tas andun din yung brother ng pinsan ng mom ko, na basketball player.. sa pbl.. but i didnt get to see him yesterday..:( pero ok lang yun, he looks like his bro naman eh.;) haha! i just cant keep my eyes off him! haiii.. tas nakakaasar pa.. ang GWAPO nung katabi ko na guy. bata pa itsura. mukha siyang 12, pero super.. kamukha niya si ryan cabrera! haha!! "=======.. i think there's something wrong with my eyes.. i cant keep them off you.." shocksssss!! omg talaga!!! haiiii. .. . pero oh well.. he's kinda mejo older than me ano.. haha! tas pinagtitripan niya ako dun sa video cam. zinoozoom niya!! :(( iyak na! haha! ang ganda ng smile niya.. nakakasilaw.. i wont even wonder kung bakit siya nakuhang commercial model..;) well anyway, back to the story, si monic, yung bro ni al, shet. nanliliit ako sakanya coz his height measures 6'3" at mejo lang ako ay 5'2" lamang ano! kailangan kong tumingala, habang siya kailangan niyang tumungo! tas nung kinarga niya yung pinsan kong magwone year old nah, nahilo raw!hahaah! haiii.. i wish that he'd have another commercial.. para masilayan ba ito? haha joke lang. i idolize him. kasi he is so fun to be with, and he has this "oh-my-god-yung-smile-niya-nakakasilaw" look all the time.ü okay.. that's all for now!:) haha.;) and if you want to learn more about that day,*[[haha, tinamad magpost.;)]]* go to my sister's xanga.;) www.xanga.com/j_aouie orayt? ingat y'all and take care!

ting! hospital visit!

2005-08-25T18:20:00.000-07:00

haha! ansaya ng araw na toh!!=)) super.. kase kanina ng morning nag breakfast kami sa classroom.. masyadong bihira siya na tawaging breakfast... tas umalis na kami. . papuntang ospital! tas ansaya parang barkada trip! haha!=)) tapos may joke jokan may tawanan may kantahan may creepy stories.. ano namang gagawin mo sa buong trip alangan naman manahimik ka nalang diba? haha! so pagbaba namin so ospital.. huwaw.. bumulaga saken ang isang napakacute na nurse.. *[[sa lahat ng tao nurse pa!]]* tapos di ko namalayan nakasmile na pala ako sakanya.. at nakatitig.. maya maya pagpasok namin ng ospital.. biglang may nag good morning.. shet siya yun!!! good morning ren.. hhaha! anong school niyo? ahhhh.. uhhh.. assumption antipolo... *[[omg major cute guy ito!!]]* tapos sabe niya.. bye.. gassshh! tapos grabehan ah..=)) tas may nakita ako sa emergency room na guy.. DUGUAN! omg.. tapos yun.. pictorial namin sa may ward b ng ob gyne tas nakatingin si major cute guy! omg talaga!!! gusto kong bumalik doon!!!:0

si alyana.. my new seatmate! nawala yung havaianas niyang flip flops.. omg nakakatakot! imagine mawawala mo ang slippers na mahigit ISANG LIBO?! omg.. wawa naman. ;,(

yun lang muna as of now.. KILIG! I LOVE YOU MAJOR CUTE GUY!!!=))

a dream.. i wish it'd be for real..

2005-08-14T18:49:00.000-07:00

last night.. i slept late..
i was so tired.. i woke up..
7 am, still early..
i slept..
naisip ko dun sa movie..
"you know, dreams should be remembered and appreciated.."
sure thing, this thing i'll remember..

i was in a car race..
there were two contestants..
sir nikolai and some afro guy..
sir nikolai won, and the afro guy wanted revenge..
he searched for him.. at first akala ko kampi siya sa amin
pero hinabol niya kami dahil pinag hihinalaan niya kami..
may kasama akong 2 friends ni sir..
a guy and a girl.. the girl was shot,
so im left with the guy..
nasa may dead end na kami, near the sea..
[[dramatic ano?]]
bumaba yung guy, bumaba yung afro,, naghabulan sila..
naglabas ng balisong yung afro.. it was shining..
nakahiga sila.. inawat ko..
he said "shut up!" sabay saksak sa right most lower tiyan..
then i was shocked.. tulala na bigla..
naghahabol ng hininga.. parang.. ewan..
nagulat ako, hindi ako namatay.. pero parang nafeel ko sayang, sana namatay nalang ako..
naglakad ako, wishing na mamatay na ko..
i was walking.. when suddenly nakaabot ako sa isang place.. sumakay ako ng bus..
naglakad ako sa may sidewalk, and i saw rj..
he was there, i saw him, but he didn't see me..
nadaanan ko lang siya.. then hinabol niya ako..
naluha ako, nakita ko na ulit siyang nakangiti..
akala ko hindi niya ako papansinin.. pero biglang kinausap niya ako..
sabi niya "pota! camille ikaw ba yan? mukha kang multo! multo ka ba?"
"anong nangyari sa iyo bakit ka may dugo?!"
"huwag mo nang pakialaman iyan.. wala lang yan.."
natakot siya, hinug ko siya.. mukha na pala talaga akong multo noon..
tapos bigla siyang lumayo.. tinulak niya ako..
"huwag, tama na.. ayoko nang maalala ka pa.."
solid yun ano, so ang ginawa ko pinabayaan ko lang siya..
may kasama ata siyang ibang girl noon.. enjoying..
kaya pala siya nakangiti..
hinayaan ko nalang siya, wishing he'd smile back at me.. pero nang irap..
parang wala kaming pinag daanan..
naglakad pa ako, humahagulgol sa daan..
napunta ako sa school, sa may volleyball court..
ang daming tao, parang report card day..
katabi ko yung girl sa mymp.. nakita niya ako.. dugong dugo..
unti unting nauubos yung dugo.. parang nagiging sobrang lamig ko na..
"susmarya! ano toh?" anong nangyari sayo!?!?
sabi ko sakanya..
"ui.. tawagan mo nga si nina.. i want to see her right now.."
[[mejo anlabo nung part]]
tas nasa phone na si nina.. sabi niya ang taray ko raw..
"sorry kung ganon, pero i just wanna tell you na i want to see you right now, may mangyayari kase.."
"i cant. im busy. para namang mamamatay ka na.."
"oo nga. mamamatay na nga........"
"ano ba yang mga jokes mo di na nakakatawa.. korni.."
sabay sabat "ano ka ba nina!!! totoo nga!!"
"sige ill be there na!" then after an hour.
nanghihina na ako.. parang hindi ko na toh kakayanin..
tas dumating na siya.. andun na siya sa harapan ko..
hinug ko siya.. tas may umepal sa likod niya..
siya pala yun.. hinug ko siya.. para at least sa huling minuto ng buhay ko..
andun siya..
tapos binulong ko dun sa mymp girl..
"wag mo sakanila sasabihin yung mangyayari ah.. tiyaka mo nalang sabihin pag wala na ako.. at yan, utos ko yan.. wag mong sasabihin na sinabi ko sayo na wag sakanilang sabihin.."
tinawag ni nina yung lahat ng tao.. kumakanta siya ng "constantly"..
tapos napaluha nanaman ako.. yung relatives ko sabi ang drama ko raw..
hinug ko isa isa.. sobrang di ko na talaga kinaya..
konti nalang yung pumapatak..
eto na..
eto na ang katapusan ko..
dito na..
dito na mawawala lahat..
nakatayo ako, hindi makasalita..
hanggang sa palima lima nalang na patak..
napaluhod ako..
umiiyak..
andun siya sa tabi ko.. nakatingin lang..
akala niya siguro trip tripan lang yun..
akala niya siguro paarte ko lang yun..
hanggang sa pinilit kong magsalita..
"ku-- kunnggg aaalamm niiyyooo llllaangg kunngg ggaannnoo kooo kkkaayyyoo..........................."
napadapa ako..
tulala..
may nagsisigawan..
pumikit ako..
"mahal.. lalo na ikaw.. babantayan kita.."
hanggang dun lang.. wala na akong maalala..

hindi ko alam kung mangyayari yun..
sana nga...............

...

2005-08-13T11:30:00.000-07:00

gosh.. di na sia aken..:(( fuuuuuuuuuuccccccckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!
pero oh well.. i need to see him smile.. shet..:(( kakayanin ko kaya?:(( okay.. moving on..:((
i still love him eh, pero...
i feel like i wanna curse the world! haiiii..
calm down...:((
eto, poems na ginawa ko kanina..

cutting end
falling in love with you maks me realize
i can do anything
and for the second time i fell
i felt like nothing is impossible.

why did you leave me?
wasn't i good enough?
good enough to make you see
how much you mean to me?

how could this be?
when just yesterday
just yesterday
we forgot about the world
and there was just the two of us standing
and the time seemed to stop?

there was just the two of us
just you and me
truncate my life
i cant live with this.

no
i breathe what i breathe
i see what i see
i feel what i feel
i love what i love

you left me here waiting
waiting for the perfect moment
that you'd love me again
you'd kiss me again

you left me with an evil grin
i was left here standing
all the things i felt inside
i want everything to end.

let me be the one to make you see
how much you meant to me
'coz without you, this worl would be
nothing to me.

katangahan
pagkagising ko isang umaga
nagtaka ako
"bakit tumutulo 'tong luha ko?"
isa lang pala ang ibig sabihin noon
wala ka na pala sa buhay ko.

pagkaratin ko sa eskwelahan
naisip ko habang tulala sa pisara
"bakit ko pa siya pinakawalan?"
isa lang pala ang pahiwatig noon
gusto kitang makitang masaya
kahit na masaktan pa ko't mukha akong pabigat sayo.

umuwi ako, habang nasa kotse
naramdaman ko
"eto pala ang pakiramdam ng wala siya"
dahil iyon nga, binigay ko na lahat sayo
pero kulang parin ba?
pinagpalit mo pa ako sa iba...:((

wala na
wala na akong pakialam
kung anong sabihin ng mundo
basta't ang alam ko ay mahl kita,
mahal kita.

nawala ako sa sarili ko
parang gusto ko nang bugbugin ang mundo
hindi ko na kilala ang sarili ko
babalik pa kaya ang dating "ako"?

ngayong lumuluha na ako
humahagulgol sa kakaisip ng pinagdaanan
ang mga pinaghirapan
bawat patak ng luha ko
kapantay ng sampung beses
na pinangiti't pinasaya mo ako

masarap pala talaga ang magmahal ng tao
lalo na pag ikaw ang minamahal
pero masakit pag nalaman mong wala na siya
dahil alam mong hinding hindi na siya babalik

salamat nalang sa lahat
salamat sa pagpaparamdam mo sakin
pero tandaan mong mahal parin kita
pero di ko na yata kakayaning bumalik pa sa iyo.

shocks ano? ang hirap talaga.. i love hale na.. kase i remember the last time we were happy.. was when i was listening to their music and he was telling me everything he felt.. nakakatouch super.. tas naiyak pa ko nun.. kase he was telling everything then here tonight was playing.. those days would just be memories.. just plain memories.. of the first true love that i felt.. which made me realize the importance of things like those.. i want to go back to my past, if only i could do something.. im never coming back to him coz i dont wanna feel the thing again.. but now i know how it feels to be heart broken i swear im never gonna go back.. i thank him naren kase i felt those feelings.. na somehow he made me smile.. peroo just like what broken sonnet said, "maybe im just not the one for you..".. haiii.. hirap men! i love you do much.. i just gotta let him know.. pero there are things na im not supposed to do.. but i guess we just have to live our own separate lives.. i never wanted this to end, but we need time and space.. i need to move on.. feeling ko i'd be jealous if he had another girl.. pero i just hope and i wish na sana he'd be happy with his decision.. i respect his choice, sometimes we just have to let go of the things we have and not to expect so much.. stay nalang sa present, never go to the future.. coz you might not know, the plans you planned might not come true.. and it might just make you feel so bad.. or even worse.. so ill just remember those days.. im losing words.. im not the "camille" he knew anymore.. the tears and the hurt i kept inside.. i need to make things change.. if things dont change, everything would totally be different.. how could i possibly let go??... "natapos na ang lahat, andito parin ako.. hetong nakatulala, sa mundo.." sabi pa nga.. "hindi mo maisip ang mga pangarap ko para sayo.." "oh.. hindi ko maisip kung wala ka.. oh sa buhay ko.." but sorry, im experienceing it na.. im not going to look for the guy who'd make me feel better, *[[if you get what i mean,;)]]* i just want him to come... and all i can say is.. "whoa." i never thought these things would happen.. "sundan mo ang paghimig na lulan ng aking pinagtatanto".. shet. ill be here, right at your side, sabi niya.. fine, eh hindi nanaman niya ako kinakausap.. fuck.. how could i be there for you when you're not even there for me?! sige, i hope i'd see the smile in our faces again.. i hope.. i'll try to be happy for you.. even if it takes a million miles..............

2005-07-17T13:54:00.000-07:00

someone posted this sa friendster.. haha. and i think that most of the statements here are soooo true.;)

SECRETS ABOUT GUYS......

-When a GUY is quiet and is alone,
He is thinking of you and he misses you.
-When a GUY is lying on his bed,
He is thinking deeply why he loves you.
-When a GUY looks at you in your eyes,
He wants to tell you how much he loves
you and how important you are to him.
-When a GUY answers "I'm Fine" after a while,
He is not and feels hurt.
-When a GUY keeps asking you the same
question,
He is wondering why you are lying.
-When a GUY hugs you while sleeping,
He is wishing that youd belong to him forever.
-When a GUY calls you everyday,
He Misses You and wants your attention.
-When a GUY wants to see you everyday,
He cares for you and he wants to know how
you are today.
-When a GUY sends messages to you everyday,
He wants you to know he is fine.
-When a GUY says I love you,
He really means it.
-When a GUY says that he can't live without you,
He has made up his mind that you are his future
wife.
-When a GUY says "I Miss You",
He wants to see you immediately.

haha.;)

anyway,, nakita namin ng sis ko si arvin sa shopwise! lol! kakatawa itsura niya mukha siyang TATAY! he was holding the hand of a small boy.. haha! nakakatuwa! and he was dancing.. LIKE CRAZY.. rotflmao! haha! tapos yun.. nung una ko siyang nakita kumindat ba naman.. yuck.. haha! mas gwapo pa yung small boy sakanya!=))

haha. so yun lang muna sa ngayon..;)

2005-07-16T22:49:00.000-07:00

isawan.. haiii i miss that place! kaya pumunta kami kanina!:D

2005-07-16T19:33:00.000-07:00

haha.. kanina.. nag volley kami nina giyay.. tas sobrang deserted yung court! haha! sinet-up namin yung net,, tas dumating sina *toot!* inspired nanaman si giyay.;) haha!:D anyway.. tas dumating si spongebob, yung laging nang ttama ng bola! tapos.. nag gigitara sila! rarrr! tas dumating si yvette.. tas si izia.. nakilaro na rin siya!:D tapos maya maya dumating si blow, si arvin at si inigo.. tas nag basketball sila sandali! haha. tapos nakivolley narin sina blow at inigo.. si inigo grabe parang.. galit sakin kanina! haha! tas tinamaan pa yung [toot] ko! ouch talaga! tapos.. pumunta kaming isawan.. lahat kami! tas sumunod sina arvin at inigo.. biglang nawala si giyay at izia pati si yvette kasi naglaro ulit sila sa court.. tas si blow mukhang tanga sumasayaw! tas nakisayaw naman si arvin! tapos si inigo naman ""nod ya head".. yea, dun nagsimula yung tawanan..;) tapos bigla kaming napunta sa topic na mga ka conyohan! like "see me na here sa grocery. im waiting na" or "you want me to hiwalay you na?" tas biglang hirit ni arvin "ang pangit ng tunog!" tas tawa lang kami.. then later on pinagtitripan ako nila about the textan namin ni inigo! yea ryt.. as if he's gonna like me! and as if naman im gonna like him! we're just plain ol' friends.;) i help him with nikki!:D haha.;) tas binanggit ko "ano ka ba blo, meron na kong iba!" tas parang sabi niya "oh no! bakla pala si inigo!" [ano raw? nasa isip ko..] tas yun uwian na kami.. there's this rumor na si pony at si moon na!! omg!!

nung tuesday nag pictorial kami nina britt.. haha ala lang!:D

***red: yakk!
***blue:aryt!
***peach:secret lang..;)

haha! haii..:((

2005-07-03T19:07:00.000-07:00

haii.. today is one helluvah nice day! shiyoxx! yung magkapatid [si snixx and braderr! haha!] naglalaro kami kasi kanina ng volleyball.. tas bigla ba naman nag-aagawan sa bola! shiyet! sabi ni snixx.. [oi! take turns nalang para walang away!] i actually don't know what snixx meant.. haha!;) pero it was still striking! haha!

si rj naman.. napaka! kakaasar! iniiwasan niya ako! as if! naman oH! kung pansin niyo lang yung last post ko eh napakasaya ko pa sakanya.. pero ngayon di nah..:(( kakaasar kasi siya eh.. gumagirls na.. :(( di man lang niya naisip na alam mo na.. and i never heard a word from him since the day na nagkacrush siya dun sa flouriene na yon.. rarrrr! remember nalang na i remember names! rarrrr! *transforming into a big, nasty tiger* haii.. *transforms into a tiny calmed cat* weh?! mga imbento! haha! kakaasar parin siya.. haiii.. i just need someone who could make me feel better.. someone na flexible.. someone na pede ko maging best friend.. kahit hanggang besty lang! naaalala ko tuloy nung sinabi sakin toh.. "sino bang mas pipiliin mo? yung mahal mo pero di ka mahal? o yung mahal ka pero di mo matutunang mahalin?" shiyoxx! tapos naalala ko pa sa movie na seabiscuit.. "it's better to break a man's leg than to break a man's heart"... tas eto pa.. "no man's worth a woman's tears" pati "for the world you are just one person but for a person you are the world.." haii..

yun na muna sa ngayon.. thanks to all my friends na nagbigay sakin ng advice.. names nila:
***jelai
***marianne
***julia
***brittany
***ina
***cachi
***vanessa
***rd
***gwen
***erika
***hannah
***alyana
and a whole lot more... love yah guys..;)

haha.. weird life, eh?

2005-05-28T15:00:00.000-07:00

haha. i haven't been updating this thing. yesterday he just asked me that same question he asked me last feb 20..;) oh gawd.;)

haven't been updating

2005-05-21T11:23:00.000-07:00

haha! sorry di na ko nag uupdate.. i'll just update when i have the time.. hehe;)

waterfight!!

2005-05-04T21:39:00.000-07:00

kanina mielle pm-ed my sis.. she was informing us about the water fight.. haha! so i was kinda excited! wahaha!:D so all i did was wait.. hanggang mag-3 na.. so we went to giyay's house.. then pumunta na kaming pool.. si ate greyzzz si ate nicole si izia si giyay si beng si mielle si cathie si yvette si ate atchka ako andun. pinagtitripan nila yung mga bata sa pool tas magttumbling silang padive dun sa pool.. ang kulit! haha! tas after nila pagtripan they gave the guys some polvoron.. haha! tas after nun we went to the court na to set up the net.. tas we played na.. then we had the waterfight na.. this guy, dean, was cheating. sabing isa isa lang yung kukuhaning ice tubig nandaya! he has one ice tubig on his hand.. but come on! he has 2 sa loob ng pocket niya! nung naubusan na kami ng ice tubig meron pa siya then i asked for one.. i didn't know he opened it.. then when he threw it, i was about to catch it.. you know what happened next? the water splashed sa mukha ko. darn!!! so bumawi ako the next set! i was throwing ice on his back! haha! he was threatening me before the second set.. "camille! lagot ka sakin! handa ka lang!" i was thinking after the 2nd set " ngayon sinong lagot? bwahahahah!" then we had this team.. (sineryoso as in!) black and white kami ni ate.. black ako tas white si ate.. we had this little secret na may extra water gun pa kami. wahaha. so we'll meet up tomorrow for all those..:D grabe sa court walang tao hanggang 5.. haha! so the day went on.. masaya yung ending nung adventure! i was asking my sister "bakit kaya wala si spiderman? chka si ashley? achka si jeepney boi? bakit kaya ano?" while we were walking.. only to find out nasa harapan na namin sila! how scary! haha! aww. namimiss ko na tuloy bigla si snixx chka si obsession.. :(( hindi na nga nagpaparamdam si snixx eh.. :(( too sad..

the weekend was so fun! haha!

2005-05-01T18:56:00.000-07:00

he was all i wanted... (snixx! ikaw toh!!!)

hmm.. so many things have happened.. ahhahaha.:D everyday ko na nakikita si snixx. there was this guy i met last thursday who was kind.. haha.:D i dont even know his name,, but he knows my name. haha. i met him kasi sa court sumulpot kasi xa sa game tas ang first impression ko sakanya? mayabang.. pero habang tumatagal.. hindi naman pala... haha!

anyway,, the following day.. friday.. habang nagrerest kami during prac may topic kami tungkol sa nueva escuela and they were like"classmate kita dati diba? ikaw ren dba? kaklase ba kita? naaalala mo pa si ganito? si ganyan?" haha. that night nagbasketball kami.. with that airhead guy.. si rodel (kung tama man ang spelling.:D) and he was like so mayabang.. (conyo!) tas naggame kami.. magkateam kami nung guy na naka white (haha whatever) tas si ate chka si rodel tas during the game natamaan ko si ate tas nasprain xa. haha!

yesterday.. punta kami ng beach.. goddamn cool! pero i missed our volleyball game yesterday.. which is a so-not-cool fact. (but anyway thanks to the adidas guy and the red guy who replaced us, if ever, for the competition,:D) while we were on the way to batangas.. i was thinking about snixx.. i was thinking that i wont be able to see him again.. so i was a bit sad.. nung nakarating na kami sa house ng cuz ko,, nagkaraoke muna kami while waiting for the other guys. haha. then when they arrived we went to the beach.. so here's the funny thing,, when we arrived sa beach the beach wasn't THAT clean and there were jellyfishes..(patay na nga eh.) and this guy, bj, squished it! yuck! only to find out that that wasn't the place where we were going to swim.. that was the place where we're going to sleep PALA.:) pupunta pa pala kami sa laiya.. (napayong beach, or whatever you call that) then we still have to wait until the sun sets.. so we swam around 4 30 pm.. the place was nice.. then my uncle said that yung marinara dun nagshshooting.. hhaha! nagplay kami sa may sand.. sa buong family,, siguro kaming dalawa lang ni ate ang hindi nasugatan. haha. so we had to go back.. me, 2 of my cousins and my sister were wet so we had to ride the jeep (not really the jeep as in yung maingay.. yung parang lumang car na ewan) tas ang freaky kasi pataas yung pabalik.. tas we had to put some more air dun sa jeep para kayanin kami.. tas while we were going up nagsstop yung makina,, so my cousin was praying aloud "our father!! who art in heaven! holy be your name!..." so i was scared. haha. then my uncle said we have to go down and make buelo.. (conyohan toh!!!) than we pushed the jeep.. finally we were on top.. haha. i was kinda feeling the air.. it was so fun.. we didn't sleep all night.. haha.

we slept @ around 12 10 am then we woke up at around 3 am to watch the sky.. i saw a falling star.. haha. then at around 4 30 we got hungry so we got up and looked for some food we can eat. tsumitsibog nalang kami ng bread. haha. the whole morning we were playingvolleyball.. and then i rested then i played volleyball with tita millet.. and she was tired after maybe 20 minutes.. haha then i took a bath... i wore my funny outfit.. my shirt has a 2-piece.. haha! so i was laughing out loud.. my aunts and uncles took pictures of me.. whatta.. then there was this guy that looked straight at me.. i was kinda freakin out coz he was like "hinuhubaran ka sa tingin".. and he also looked like he was a drug addict.. and one of my cousins told me parang he's bingot.. haha! whatta term.:D we went home after eating lunch.. i was puyat so i slept on the way home.. haha! and now im here.. missing someone..:((

that's all for the past few days..:D

what a day.. haha! ansaya!:D

2005-04-27T23:27:00.000-07:00

haha!:D super saya yesterday..:D pagkarating palang.. saya na! sinakay kami ni ate ann sa kanyang car.. i didn't have the chance to say thanks kasi.. secret!:D tas sinet up na nila yung net and stuff.. tas after siguro mga 20-25 minutes dumating si daddy.. si kuya ian..:D then we played basketball.. buti nalang wala dun sina amanda kasi nakakailang sila pag naglalaro kami. anyway.. nanalo kami ng sis ko sakanya! wahahah.. so nilibre niya kami ng isang litro ng coke! wahahaha..:D tapos.. before nun, sinakay niya kami sa car niya kasi bibili kami ng coke.. [whoa, isang litro iyon.. masayang magparty lalo na kung tatlo lang kayo. whaahah.] tas yung baso ovaltine! hahah! benta!! :D umuwi xa.. eh putol ang tsinelas! ano ba yun! tas nakita ko sina .. yung tatlo.. yung trio.:D hahahaha!

ang saya mag volleyball forever..:D tang ina.. niloloko nila ako kahapon kay jomi.. excuse me lang hah,, di siya yung crush ko.. di nga xa dumating kahapon kaya mejo sad...:D hahhahah! achka hello,, jomi was just trying to help! [if ever nababasa mo toh salamat nalang.:D] tangena. isa pa. kagabi nasa labas ng bahay sina.... spiderman! kadiri! tas parang habang nakadungaw ako sakanila si jeepney boi nagbbounce bounce ng bola.. tas ang gwapo ni ashley.. which was my xcrush.. haha!:D

that's all for yesterday.:D hehe.:D

vacation highlights..:D

2005-04-23T22:50:00.000-07:00

hm.. masaya ng sobra ang mga practice! of course dahil andun ang aking bagong ultimate ultimate crush.:D wahahah!:D lagi na rin akong nadidistract dahil sakanya. wahhahaha.;) (kami lang ng sis ko ang nakakaalam! hehehe;) ) anyway.. i also saw snixx and ... ex crushes.. hhahhahahha!!!:D pati si double b!:D hyper mode!!!!!!!! haha.:D come on!

i dedicate this song to double b..:D

" Neon "

Album: Palabas

your smile is gently freezing
snow throws it away
your the laughter in my silence
the crow that keeps me awake

green towel less soft-spoken
thoughts you never knew
your lies and empty promises
blew them all on hue

[Chorus:]
how does it feel?
how is it that i cant feel
coz i,i need to know

coz i
i know i can never be enough
to replace your whatever
and i, i think its shiny and blue

like an instant see-through
coz i know i can never be enough
to replace your whatever
now everything is silent
and everything is still without you near

everything about you
the world was something new
and i was there in the open
well, just to be with you

but evrytime i see the shelter
and evrytime i walk away
your the laughter in my silence
the cold that feeds my day

[Chorus]
how does it feel?
how is it that i cant feel
coz i,i need to know

coz i
i know i can never be enough
to replace your whatever
and i, i think its shiny and blue

like an instant see-through
coz i know i can never be enough
to replace your whatever
now everything is silent
and everything is still without you near

and everytime i see you passing by
i'll just stand here waiting for you
and i will talk to myself what a lazy sunday afternoon

and i'll say that prayer for you
will be a little bit kind
enough for me
while i try to be
so perfect
you'll see it
nothing can compare to you
whatever lies out there

there's no one here...

eto naman para dun sa bwisit na aljon na yun. hehhehe.:P

SILVERTOES - PAROKYA NI EDGAR
Wag ka nang magalala
Hinding-hindi ako inlab sayo
Bakit ba pakiramdam mo pa yata
Lahat kami ay naaakit mo

Miss, miss, pakitigil lang please
Ang iyong pagpapantasya
Hindi ka na nakakatuwa
Ipapagulpi na kita sa gwardyang may batuta
AAaaaa...yay yay yah.......

Hindi ko talaga ma-gets kung bakit ka ganyan
Ang feeling mo ay sabik sa iyo ang lahat nang kalalakihan
Sorry, pagpasensyahan mo na
Mali talaga ang iyong inaakala
Lahat kami ay nandidiri sa iyo
Ikaskas mo na sana ang mukha mo sa semento

Chorus:
Di kami na-tuturn on sa kutis mong kulay champurado
Di kami naaakit sa labi mong garabucho...
O please naman, pakitanggap mo na lang ang katotohanan
Na ganyan ka 'pinanganak
Wag ka nang magpapanggap na ikaw ay isang dalagang ubod ng ganda
Kahit na alam naman natin na ang karakas mo ay ubod ng sama
Siguro nga naman ay may mga mas pangit pa sayo
Pero at least hindi sila nagpapakyut katulad mo
Nakaka-bad-trip ka, nakakairita tuwing kita'y nakikita
Di ko alam ba't ang laki ng ulo mo
Magingat-ingat ka, baka ikaw ay sagasaan ko

Refrain:
Di kami na-tuturn on sa kutis mong kulay champurado
Di kami naaakit sa labi mong garabucho...
O please naman, pakitanggap mo na lang ang katotohanan
Na ganyan ka 'pinanganak
Wag ka nang magpapanggap na ikaw ay isang dalagang ubod ng ganda
Kahit na alam naman natin na ang karakas mo ay ubod ng sama

O please naman, pakitanggap mo na lang ang katotohanan
Na ganyan ka 'pinanganak
Wag ka nang magpapanggap na ikaw ay isang dalagang ubod ng ganda
Kahit na alam naman natin na ang karakas mo ay ubod ng sama
AAaaaa...yay yay.....

eto naman para kay snixx.

UNA - SPONGECOLA
Muli nanamang umihip sa akin
Ang hangin ng pag-iisa
Liwanag kang dagling sumilaw saking
Mga mata

Linilingon
Sinusundan
Dumdalas ang minsan
Ika'y nariyan
Abot tanaw
Kahit walang dahilan

Maiiwasan ba
Ang bawat sandaling ika'y laman ng isip ko
[maiiwasan bang]
ngayo'y lilipas nang hindi kita nasisilayan
[magkamali sayo]
nararapat bang pigilan ang damdamin na
[maiiwasan bang]
lalong mahulog sa'yo

walang maitutulad sa sumpang iyong nilikha
putulin man ang tali ay sadyang walang kawala
sa pagkaakit at di paglapit
nananalangin
at umaasa

aah...

naka pink nga pala xa kahapon. haha. i mean,, peach pala.:D that's all for today.. hhehehe;)

hehe.:D

2005-04-20T19:04:00.000-07:00

mejo galet sa kulay. hehe.:D anyway,, he's gone.. iniisip ko na single cell lang xa sa katawan ko. hhahaha. pasorry sorry pa xa di naman sincere, whatevah.

so yun. haha. im enjoying my vacation. shocks ang tagal ko nang di nag-uupdate. hehe :Þ

ngayong vacation i only play volleyball. nothing else.:D hheehehee.:D

im having fun, yeah. im crushing nanaman sa mga ex crush ko. haiiii...:)) yung isa sobrang flat nung tiyan, yung isa sobrang ganda ng smile yung isa naman mu yung isa naman "best" friend ko.:D haha! tas there was this guy na nangungulit na crush ko si *labi* .. no way! hahaha. joke ka naman eh. nagkataon yung guy na yun brother ng bestfriend ko! (well, i wish she still treats me as her "best friend" but it seems like she has some other friends.. i mean barkada..:( ) ayon,:D ang loser namin sobra sa mga games..:) sorry talaga!:D

sige update ko nalang toh. hehe:D

please highlight.:D

2005-04-20T04:09:00.000-07:00

ingat sa inyong lahat! kain lang ako. have fun!:D